Promulgation of love.

Almost two years of relationship. And just because i couldn't meet you in the morning. You end everything just like that, can you really let go of everything, and put everything down ? Sorry i cant. We built everything up, then we tore everything down. Since this is the ending that you wanted, then i can only wish you all the best in life and take good care. I'll never forget everything that we've shared. I hope you'll lead a better life from now on, and will always be happy. I know what he can give me may be much better than what you can, but that does not means that what he can give is what i want. I know in my heart deep down that no one else would be able to bring back that laughter and joy into my life anymore. Thanks for everything. All the laughter, joy and also tears. Goodbye..

PS: Hate that i love you.

4:42 PM

So much things that i got to say. I know you'll read my blog, maybe. Somehow letting go hurts, but i'll try. 08th july 2008 till 13th april 2010 almost going 2 year. Why everything got to eng just like that. Over a stupid lie and anger ? Yes, i admit im wrong for betraying you. But have you ever think that if you had been honest with me, all this would NEVER had happened. How i really wish that we were still like the past, so loving. Why, i kept asking myself. You thought im living very happily right now, however, memories just kept flashing in my mind. Afterall, i know i cant really let go of the past. You gave me an hour but i did not appear. Why ? Cause somehow i know its already the end. Even if i went, i'll be crying back. I know it very clearly. Your messsages totally hurt me deep down. If you hadn't lie, perhaps we'll be meeting each other like everyday. Going all around, swimming, catching bearbear, drinking, prawning, and everything that we could think off.. Feeling so fucking breathless. But there's nothing i can do anymore bout it. Maybe this is the only way that i an communicate with you. Fate brought us together. But then, it tore us apart again. All i can do is only to give you my blessings. And hope you'll find a better girl. Take good care of your health too.

PS: I know i still love you as much..

8:04 AM

Spent my Saturday with Sasha and Steffi at Resort, and as expected, Oasis too :)

But many things happened. I made a great scene there, all "thanks" to you.

Afterall, I didn't know why must you be doing all these, to claim that you still love me, trying to gain back my trust, yet on the other side you're doing the opposite.
Didn't know why you got to lie again and again.
People often make minor mistakes, but they choose to use a bigger lie to cover it up.
You're so F.A.K.E.

6:11 PM

The best thing about this lonesome feeling is that I've got nothing more to lose..

Didn't attend school today, sick :( Same goes for Vanessa. Gonna head to clinic to get MC later. Grrrrr, troublesome !! >:

School kindof suck ? Homework's pilling up like a mountain and I don't seem to understand a single shit. God, help me !! I don't want to get retained again :(

Gonna meet Sasha tonight i supposed. Oasis ? I don't know. Hahaha.
Have been like Oasis Oasis Oasis everyweekend.

Thanks boy for delivering breakfast early in the morning for me :) Yumyum !!

Anddddddd, I've got my phone changed !
Happy happy. LG new chocholate (bl20). Find it damn chio and sweet :)
But, the phone like got ALOT of problem, need to get it changed ASAP :(

Till here, gonna get preparedddd. Baibai !

Bye Nich. Short, but sweet. All the best to you.

10:46 AM

Love's like a game.
And, it's a game over now.

No words can describe this feeling in me.
I'm tired. Very very sick of these nonsense. Fuck everything.
I see our love falling apart, but there's nothing i can do anymore.
All the best to you. Goodbye.

-

Currently replacing Sasha at work. Fucking bored.
I want to die. I want to sleep. I want to smoke. I want to drink. I want to play.
I want love. I want hugs. I want kiss. I want hellokitty.
Afterall, i dont know what im ranting about.

Bye peeps.

7:50 PM

Life's bored, bored, bored..
No job, job, job !!

Computer's running much more faster today than usual. I like, got mood to update, hmmm...

And im very addicted to song, Bu Xue by Xiao Gui, almost crazy !! :) Thanks to Patricia.
Replay, replay, and replay.. Haha..

Hubby: Eh, bi, tomorrow i need go temple pray grandma leh, wanna go ?
Me: Which temple ?
Hubby: Guang Ming Shan (temple's name)
Me: Eh, my AhGong also place there leh ! So, they are neighbours ? Heheh..
Hubby: No, they are friends !! Good friends !!

I need to sleep early and see if i can manage to wake up early tomorrow to accompany Hubby go pray his grandmother :)

So, ciaos ! :)

1:43 AM

I only blog whenever i like, i don't know why. Which is once in a long long while.
Countless of things had happened, both good and bad.

I miss you fcking much suddenly. How i wish you were right beside me now ):
I didn't know why this relationship turn so sour, so bitter.
Using harsh words on each other, and not even chasing when i walk away.

Perhaps, leaving a gap between us is the best solution to every single quarrel.
Although it hurts, i'll try. Maybe by caring lesser, will do us both better )':

I fucking miss this part. I fucking miss this period of time. I fucking want the past back !!
Pleaseeee !! ):

Hani, faster come back ]: I miss you ! There's so much i want to tell you !!

Cute hor ? Random. HAHAHA.
Till here. Bai bai :)

1:15 AM